I think I may be certifiable.
I feel like I'm going crazy (literally) these days. My brain seems so fragmented. I can't focus on an entire thought train long enough to finish the thought before it derails. My spirit is following suit, so by the end of the day I feel so scattered and frazzled that nothing short of a hot shower, a cup of hot tea, and some silent time in prayer will calm me down.
I'm not sure what's causing it, but I have some hunches. For one thing, at the beginning of the year I got in major organizing mode like the rest of the world. This is necessary in our house, but now that it's late February, I'm still finding random piles and assorted not-yet-finished projects here and there. Progress is being made, but in the meantime it seems as though all these piles are screaming at me: "Finish me first! No, me first! No, I'm the most pressing and annoying---finish ME first!" (In case you don't know this about me yet, I get easily overwhelmed. And when I'm overwhelmed, I tend to just shut down and not go any further. Handy quirk, I know.)
I'm also in the middle of reevaluating our daily schedule. It needs tweaking, as always, so that I can try to find a balance in juggling the many things we're trying to accomplish around here. I'm one of those weird ones that likes to have "fun time" scheduled in so that I don't feel guilty while I'm just goofing off playing with my kiddos!
There's also various trials going on in the lives of lots of the people I care about, and concern for them is preoccupying my thoughts.
So tell me, I used to think that this was just a "mom thing", but am I wrong? Do any of you find yourself in a mental mess from time to time? Thankfully this isn't a constant problem for me; it's intermittent, but when it hits it seems to stick around for awhile before I can shake it. Everyone else out there seems to be able to think clearly, though, so perhaps I need to just put in my request for my white straight jacket and the room with padded walls now?